06/01/2014

Goodbye 2013, Hello 2014!

You might be sick of seeing them, but here is my "Hello 2014" blog post.

2013 was such an ace year, for so many reasons. I kept a happy jar throughout the year and it was lovely emptying it on New Years eve and reminiscing on the good times during 2013. Highlights of the year included finishing college (which was sad, as I was so happy there, but it ended on a high!) and achieving ABB in my A-levels, which I am very proud of. The first year of college was very difficult for me because of mental and physical ill-health, but I certainly made up for it in the second year by socialising a lot more, making new friends, stepping out of my comfort zone both in and outside of the college environment. I was supported academically and personally throughout my time at college and I am so grateful for that.


Another highlight was starting my own business with Arbonne, which is something I have previously mentioned on my blog and I am still loving it! You can see the post all about that by clicking here. I am so grateful for Arbonne as I have met so many amazing people because of it, I have been pushed out of my comfort zone and broadened my horizons massively and I am able to offer this to other people too, which is amazing.

The summer of 2013 was one of the best yet; I had an amazing week in Zante, spent lots of time with friends but the most exciting thing was that my soulmate and I decided it was high time we became an official couple and start the best relationship ever...nawww. I had an amazing 19th birthday, embarked on a gap year that is turning out very differently to what I imagined, started driving lessons, did a lot of self-discovery and am now carrying all those memories and lessons into 2014 with me...!

There were difficult times in 2013, as there are in every year that goes by. I built up very high expectations for my A-level results as I needed AAB to get into Durham, the Uni that I had my heart set on. I 'only' achieved ABB and was devastated at not getting in to my first choice of uni. However, I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason...or that good can come out of every situation. This was a massive learning experience for me, I am proud of myself for how I handled my disappointment and can honestly say that I am now so glad things worked out the way they did, as things have changed and I would no longer want to go to Durham anyway (even though it is a beautiful place and a great uni!).

I continued to battle mental and physical ill-health during 2013, although I look back on it as a year of discovering the road to recovery, and then moving along it. After over a year of weekly counselling sessions, my counsellor had to move on to other things, which brought the sessions to a rather abrupt end, although again I am proud with how I coped with that. I am in a much better place mentally than this time in 2012 and 2013, and while things are certainly not perfect physically or mentally, I certainly feel I can now handle whatever life or my body throws at me. I have also seen that my personal struggles with mental and physical ill-health can be used to help others as I can fully empathise with others rather than just sympathise.

One of the most painful things to happen in 2013 was watching my Grandad become overwhelmed by Dementia. I really struggled to watch the 'real' him disappear and be replaced by a frail, confused old man. I'm not sure if he recognised or knew me the last time I saw him, and his parting words "come back soon" broke my heart as I knew that would be the last time I would see him. He went to be with his saviour in heaven in November, which was heartbreaking and yet a relief, as we know he is free now and reunited with my Nanna whom he loved so very much, who passed away in 2007. My grandparents lived down south and it is a blessing that my boyfriend lives fairly near the cemetery, so I often go and visit them there.

I certainly learned a lot in 2013. I learned that I am much more capable than I ever thought. I learned that it is ok to cry, to be sad, to mourn, to reflect, but also that it is ok to smile, laugh and be happy. I learned that I am a fighter and a survivor and that even though I may be prone to having very dark days in the future I will be able to survive them and come out the other side a stronger person.

I learned that I am capable of loving with all my heart, something that I thought had died within me. I learned that I love growing as a person, I love pushing myself and discovering new things about myself and my relationships with other people. I learned that I have a lot more to learn - and that has been a major lesson in itself!

Resolutions? Yeah, I have some.
In 2014 I want to encourage and uplift everyone around me, particularly Josh, my boyfriend, and Jennifer, my sister.
In 2014 I want to chill out more and stop sweating the small stuff.
In 2014 I want to worry less and trust more. Trust other people more and trust the universe more - good can come of every situation.
In 2014 I want to give 100% to every area of my life.
In 2014 I want to get fit and healthy. This sounds very generic but it is true. I want to get to a point where I can one day be medication-free and have a healthy, toned, fit body.
In 2014 I want to believe in myself.
In 2014 I want to free myself from Depression.
In 2014 I want to continue to be true to myself and my emotions, to know that it is ok to feel whatever you feel, that sometimes those emotions are helpful, yet sometimes they can be destructive and it is important to understand the difference.

So there we have it. Goodbye 2013, hello 2014! I am so excited for the year ahead and what it has in store! It is going to be ACE!

Happy New Year everyone, may 2014 be YOUR year!


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4 comments

  1. such a great post - i'm glad you were able to reflect and look back on everything in such detail! i'm sorry to hear about your grandpa - my grandmother also had dementia so i know first hand how it feels to see it happen. he knows that you're there for him, and i'm sure it meant a lot to him. i hope you have a great 2014, and good luck in achieving all your goals! :)

    rachel x
    blush&brunch

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    1. thank you :) I hope you have a great 2014 too! :) xx

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